Memory |
I
had to remind myself not to forget to write this post since once an
idea is forgotten, it ends up in the trash can of no-man's land
(located at the intersection of the Bermuda Triangle). I wonder how
many brilliant books and movies have been heaped upon the dustbin of
lost, abandoned or never-realized projects. It happens everyday
everywhere to everyone; we tend to forget to put on paper ideas that
would have (potentially) made an impact on our lives.
Memoryis essential for our everyday existence; it is the glue that connects
our yesterdays with the present moments to create a (somewhat)
cohesive picture of ourselves, of our lives. Any disconnect will
disrupt our sense of continuity and create a dent or hole in our
personality and being. In fact, such disconnects, especially if on
repeated basis, will not only confuse but create a thickening cloud
of insanity.
Memory
has been portrayed in a number of films, most notably in the modern
era where one has shifted from accepted given absolute truths to a
more personal subjective and fallible view of reality. And this sense
of disorientation and confusion, coupled with technology is best
viewed in dystopian movies like Total
Recall
and Dark City
among various others.
Please keep in mind that there might be minor movie spoilers ahead
though I will not divulge any endings.
The
movie Total Recall
(I am only referring to the original Verhoeven film as I have not
seen - nor am I interested in - the more recent remake) asks us a
simple but terrifying question: What if we could create fake
memories? The protagonist takes advantage of an inexpensive
(virtual-reality) trip in which the memory of a vacation on Mars is
implanted as authentic / real-seeming as any other memory we have
of our own past experiences.
Something
goes wrong, (or does it?) and the protagonist becomes confused with
his own identity. Did this experiment help him retrieve or dig out
his own original and actual memories of his real life, his buried past as a secret
agent? Is he not a construction worker but rather a high level
secret agent whose memory has been erased so that he could blend in
with society as a construction worker? Confused? Well, not half as much as
our befuddled protagonist.
Let
us say that we have the technology to erase / implant memories
as was the case in the sublime film with the awkward title Eternal
Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
(I know it's taken from a Pope poem but it still rings awkward for a
Hollywood movie title). In
the movie, the main character decided to erase all the memories
associated with his doomed love affair, which would seem like an
ideal manner of escaping unpleasant memories and previous
experiences. But the end result is other than expected since memories
are not as clear-cut as they seem; they dangle on a slippery slope.
But
what if you wake up one morning and feel strongly that you are
someone else. How do you know that you are who you think you are? Do you check the mirror, your wallet? As
a matter of fact, we can never be really sure since we could be
deluding ourselves, or worse, we might be suffering from a mental
illness.
Surely,
we would lock up anybody who seriously thinks to be Napoleon or
even Jesus (see the excellent and hilarious The Ruling
Class to this effect,
thanks dear Vincent for pointing out this precious gem to me!). It is easy
to dismiss those famous alternate personalities, but what if you
choose a random person nobody has ever heard of, say Arash Farzaneh?
Now
this becomes a bit more existential here. We need others to confirm
our identity in the sense of "I see you, therefore you exist." When I
wake up and my wife greets me as the person I think I am (see above),
then there you go; we have the confirmed evidence to go with the
assumption. Right?
Not
so fast if you are in the dilemma of Mr
Nobody who on his
deathbed with an ailing and confused memory tries to piece together
his possible pasts to understand his actual present! But it is not
always merely a metaphysical puzzle; it can also be that others are
messing with you!
And
this brings us to the somewhat overlooked and underrated cult film
Dark City.
Here the premise is that highly technologically advanced creatures
have come to not only implant memories but to switch them overnight
wholesale.
So you would fall asleep as a couple slightly above the
poverty line eating potatoes in a shack and wake up on a large dining
table with servants serving you up steaks and fine wine. The
transition would seem rather seamless because not only you buy this
drastic change, but so does your wife to confirm this, and vice
versa. Suddenly you are a completely different person with matching
memories of that particular individual!
To
take this question further (and to fry our brains a little more) what
would happen if we could implant not only memories but transplant whole brains.
It is one thing to be told embarrassing stories about some event in
childhood that may have never happened and that you, through repeated
telling, take as actual fact; it is quite another to have someone
literally switch your brain with that of someone else's.
We
may look at our face in the mirror and feel that something is amiss
that somehow the name and the memories do not match the face, but
there is no hard evidence. And think about it; we may be like the
main character in Memento
who has a mental condition affecting his short-term memory making him
unable to create new stable memories; he would only remember a 90
second stretch and then forget everything. Suddenly he would look
around and ask himself how he got to where he is and what he is doing
with a wine bottle in the bathroom while not feeling drunk in the
least.
This
shows us that once we lose trust and faith in our memories, our
identity and our whole world that we have created around us fall apart
like a card-house. In a world where we constantly look for tangible
facts, it seems strange that our personality is so brittle that a
simple knock on the head in real life can erase it all. We end up
being not who we thought we were (is somebody messing with our minds
or are we doing it to ourselves?), but the question remains, who were
we in the first place? Can we really trust our memories on this one?
1 comment:
Good piece.
I'm glad you enjoyed the film. And I'm glad you wrote on memory in this way, too.
One's whole world, and much of one's responsibility, is centred on self-identity. Our vaunted civilization is based on individual uniqueness and non-interchangeability. Much of self-identity is based on memory, rather than today's sensations and images; and the older you get, the more memories take precedence over future expectations.
Yet this self-identity, the cornerstone of our civilization, may be, as the Indian sages have said, part of the great Maya, illusion.
And one could add another item in the long list of "What distinguishes Man from the other species?". Man lives by illusion.
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