In my previous post, I looked at how humans have become
mechanical in their thinking and behavior, partly initiating and jump-starting
technology while at the same time being influenced and shaped by technology
itself in the process. A day after my post, I tried to turn on my computer of
six years and to my surprise, nothing happened. Nothing whatsoever.
This was the first time I was facing such a situation. Previously,
my laptop had had its particular moods and needed a couple of attempts to
initiate, but this time around, I got no response no matter how many times I
tried.
I ended up trying everything in the book or rather any somewhat
reasonable remedy or solution I could get my fingertips on within cyber sphere (taking
out the battery, removing the additional charge by pressing the power button
for a determinate number of times etc.) and only stopped short of really wacky
ideas of disassembling and then reassembling the computer or of putting the
battery in the refrigerator or the even crazier and more dangerous option of
putting the battery in the oven.
All my measures were to no avail. I felt saddened and
disappointed by the whole situation. My theory was that my old computer was
sore with me because of neglect. I have recently acquired a newer model because
the old one had started failing me with its somewhat shoddy Internet
connection, which had become more pronounced ever since I had upgraded to
Windows 10. It was a reliable but aging machine with parts that were not best
suited for the modern times. I believe that five years in technological time
represent decades in human lives. Many changes occur in that time frame.
But I am not one to replace older models just like that.
I am more loyal and sentimental in that respect. I tend to keep objects,
anywhere from toys I used to play with as a child (I don’t play with them
anymore) to photos of my female friends and of a couple of ex-girlfriends among
them (objects to which my wife now and then objects). But everything to me has
sentimental value, and especially something as fundamental and essential as
laptops.
If we think of it, nowadays we spend so much time with
our computers, in some cases even more time than with humans, i.e. friends and
family. The first thing I turn on in the morning is my computer; it is what I
use for work, for pleasure, for writing and even for listening to music and
watching movies.
It is where I store my photos and ideas and it is my tool
and gateway of knowledge. There is definitely a sense of gratitude I feel towards
my computer for enabling me to do so much, and it has revolutionized and even
shaped my process of writing, perhaps even inspiring it in many ways, not
unlike the different models and styles of typewriters in Naked Lunch (the Cronenberg movie since I have not read the book
yet).
It comes down to the assumption or rather my personal
belief that objects, and even more so sophisticated devices of technology have
a certain set of peculiarities or characteristics and fall only somewhat short of autonomy
and personhood, at least for the time being.
It comes then as no surprise that we at times give our
cars, phones or computers nicknames, that we occasionally talk to them or curse
them. I am talking of personal experience again and in true Carlos Castaneda
fashion have asked computers and printers for their support in critical
situations and they have often (but not always) complied and pulled through.
We humanize our technology, especially when we make
statements like my computer does not seem to like me today alongside the
assumption that they purposely sabotage our endeavors, or worse, that our
computer has died (do they have an afterlife after all?). We imbue them with
life that it may or may not have on its own.
We develop a relationship with them as we spend so much
time in their company; we get to know their idiosyncrasies and personal touches
and, as a result, they become endearing and, moreover, unique to us. Not to
mention our constant and continuous dependence on them in pretty much any
aspect of our daily lives.
To return to my computer, I think that it was a case of
the blues and jealousy towards the newly acquired one. But I had felt thankful
for all the support and help over the years. I had passed on my old laptop to
my son and felt doubly bad that it had stopped working because I had let down my
son as well in that regard. In fact, with a somewhat heavy heart, I even went
to look for a new computer for him and would have bought him one if he had not
asked for a rather expensive one with touchscreen. I had to postpone that
particular purchase and enlist the future aid of Santa.
I returned home thinking about what to do with the old
companion of mine. Taking it to the repair shop would cost me half a fortune
and would not be worth it all things considered. Adding just a little bit of
money on top of it I could buy a new computer that would last for a longer
time.
Hence I was ready to shelve my old no more functioning
laptop in a corner and keep it as a keepsake. Perhaps I was dreaming big that
it would find itself in a museum exhibit one day as one of my cherished
possessions and writing tool. As such it would achieve immortality and a bit of
fame, assuming of course, I had made it big.
These thoughts of life, death and immortal fame circled
through my head as I looked upon the remains of my old laptop. And then I
thought, what the hell, let’s try to turn it on for one last time for old times’
sake; one last attempt before it is taken to the dark and damp storage room of
souvenirs. And lo and behold – it turned on!
This was a miracle! I know others will most likely
disagree with me, but it felt like one for me. It felt like the resurrection of
an old friend I had already given up on. And here it was! I must add that in my
confidence or rather foolishness, I had not transferred all my files and
pictures onto my new computer or storage device, and had fretted over losing
them or not having access to them ever again.
So I shouted a silent hallelujah and was thrilled, but
also perplexed about the behavior of my technological friend. I talked to a
computer science instructor about this situation and he seemed to agree with me
that there is so much we still do not know about technology and that yes, these
devices appear to have a mind of their own.
This should not come as a surprise. How many times do
devices not work when you need them the most! I can count numerous times where
DVD players would not play a perfectly fine DVD or when I was denied access to
an otherwise healthy virus-free file in an important moment. Or my favorite
case, when you have midterm exams and the printer jams in an openly defiant and
irreversible manner and you have to call an expert for immediate help.
This is why I have come to mistrust technology,
especially as an educator. I always have a Plan B for those days when I depend
on the support of technology. I purposely expect things not to work out so that
I am not caught off guard. I do my exam printing (and in fact all my necessary
printing) days before. I even prepare a speech for my students of what to say
when technology fails me once again in the heat of the moment.
So technology and me have some bones to pick. Although I
must say that over time I have warmed up to technology and have seen its human
side, the same way I have seen our own mechanical side. It seems that there is
indeed a meeting point half-way. As an addendum, my laptop still refuses to
start unless you push the power button when holding the screen at a 45 degree
angle. That’s how my computer prefers it to be done, and so it shall be.
So yes, in moments of despair, when your car or computer
won’t start or the printer won’t print, those moments of unexpected unpleasant
surprise, touch the object in question in a gentle manner, and use some
soothing words. Yes, talk to it. It cannot hurt. You have nothing to lose.
Others may chuckle at your behavior or they may take you
for a fool. They may think that they are immune against such mishaps or viruses
that may befall the best of them in a world where viruses do not only affect and
devastate humans but their technological devices as well. Yes, let them chuckle
because they do not know that technology has a human side as well.
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