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Writing became his dharma. It saved his life and kept
his sanity more or less intact, a balancing act that was perturbed for life after
experiencing up-close and first-hand the many horrors, tragedies, and cruelties
of World War II. Although before the war, his dream was to have his stories published in
the New Yorker, it was the experience of war that gave form and shaped his most
important work, his famous and infamous novel that included the sensitive but
struggling and volatile Holden Caulfield, his most memorable character.
In fact, Salinger had drafts of the novel on him as they
were waging war and, in many ways, he credits this book to have saved his life
from the madness and atrocities, which had become his reality for a substantial
period of time. Holden has been not only shaped by the alienating experiences of growing
up in a society that seemed to be solely obsessed with consumerism while purposely
or unconsciously ignoring all the other much more important aspects of life and
living, but he also had the scars and burning marks of war indelibly imprinted on
his flesh and psyche.
Later on, the stories of war seeped into Salinger's short stories as
exemplified in his brilliant collection of Nine Stories, which included
a few alter egos that did not manage to return with all their f-a-c-u-l-t-i-e-s
intact and one of whom committed suicide on a perfect day for bananafish.
It was not merely a matter of blending and fitting in
with a society that was out of whack and filled with phonies and conformists, a
difficult task in itself that Holden would try to leverage alongside his own personal
troubles and a deep longing for belonging but also to do so after glimpsing and
witnessing the darkest soul of humanity. Add to that, a society that tends to overlook,
be unaware or ignore much of this while demonstrating a lack of respect and recognition
toward those who sacrifice their lives, bodies, and sanity for our collective peace and well-being:
the many veterans of this world.
As a result, writing became Salinger's dharma and his mitzvah.
It helped him express his deepest pain, torments, and longing but at the same
time, it exceeded the mere drive for fame and recognition. We often hear and
inherently believe and abide by the oft-repeated phrases of “publish or perish”
and the desire and pride to see and have your name in print. A writer is not considered
a serious writer unless they have significant and influential publications
under their belt while we still frown upon the recent trend of self-publishing
or even blogs such as this one!
As a matter of fact, many of the writer’s dilemmas are accentuated in Salinger. First, the drive to write authentic and honest stories, not just to
entertain and make people smile, laugh, and cry but to delve much deeper into
the human experience and psyche. To create a piece of work that not only is
unique but that lasts and stands the test of time.
And like many artists who embrace and believe in their
calling, he is not ready to compromise when it comes to his work. Although some
of his stories got published in the New Yorker, they rejected Catcher because
they either did not think that it would sell, or they just did not like it, at
least as it stood. Yet Salinger would be famously hesitant and suspicious of any
notes, changes, or suggestions and would offer his work as as-is and without any
ifs and buts. Not only would he not change character traits or endings, but he
would also be furious if they added a single comma to his work, something that indeed
ended a friendship he had with an editor.
The uncompromising writers are either self-important and
inflated with a sense of pride and self-satisfaction or they are geniuses, or perhaps a bit of both. This attitude of “my way or the highway” has been the trademark
of many talented and gifted artists, writers, and filmmakers who wished and
demanded to stay true to their unique vision regardless of what editors,
producers, film critics, or audiences thought of their work or style.
And yet, a certain amount of give and take is sometimes
necessary if you want to become published. Notes are there to improve the work and they are generally provided by experts who know the field and market as opposed to a new budding writer. And
in many cases, this may be true, but without taking risks and chances and
without thinking outside of the box, we would always tread the same ground and
not be innovative or groundbreaking.
As such, a small publisher decided to publish the
little novel that become a big worldwide hit! Many readers not only resonated
with it but identified with the main character and his struggles for
authenticity in a fake and superficial world. It has inspired many to do good but
in this particular case to do bad too. Three assassinations were said to have
been influenced by this novel, making it ipso facto a dangerous piece of literature. Mark
David Chapman had not only read the book, but he had it on him the day he shot
and killed the universally beloved and admired John Lennon.
The same book that saved its author’s life was allegedly
responsible for the slaughter of an innocent person. Although no one would
blame Salinger for it, he must have felt guilty and slightly responsible, especially
because other attempts were also blamed on this same book. And yet, at the same
time, many people felt such a close affinity with the main character that they
started to look for and even harass its author. In a world where we need
superstars and leaders for supposed guidance and to pin our hopes on, Salinger seemed an
unlikely one but his words equally inspired and infected. Notwithstanding, as
he himself would say, he was just a writer of fiction, nothing more, nothing
less.
The first time I read his novel, I was thoroughly
impressed. I was a literary undergrad and it had come under my radar but
without the usual fanfare and excitement, and outside of academia. My knowledge of
modern literature was (intentionally) limited at the time as my focus was on
the 19th century. Many works including popular movies of North America were outside of the
realm of my orbit and experience as I had grown up in Germany and was more familiar with
Goethe and Schiller and much less so with an American writer by the name of J. D.
Salinger.
That helped me to read it with fresh eyes and without preconceived
notions. At the time, I was not aware that the book was the purported symbolic
assassin of one of my favorite musicians. But I was thoroughly impressed with the
book and loved its playful sense of humor in the background and context of a soul-searching
identity crisis and the pains of growing up.
It continues to have and count on my admiration. Only recently, I
decided to find out more about this reclusive writer and realized that his retreat
from literary circles and the world at large was a monk-like insistence on
focus and meditation. Salinger was influenced by Zen and Vedantic philosophy
and surprisingly enough continued writing to his dying day but vehemently and adamantly refused to
publish any of his work.
It was a significant shift from a writer who wants to
publish and receive acclaim for their work to someone who wrote for the mere
sake of writing. It was a ritual, a form of meditation and exploration of his soul
and his life’s purpose. It came at the expense of his personal life as marriages
and relationships would evidently suffer and fall apart from this one-track almost blind
obsession and dedication of his.
The question that may be posed to a budding writer might
go something like this: If you were told that you would never be published, or famous and that you would not make any money from it, would you still continue
writing? Most of us would not continue doing so unless it is the expression of
who we are.
And yet, we mostly undertake things not for their own sake
but for what we expect from them in return. For instance, meditation is done
to calm the mind, to look for oneself, for personal development, to grow
spiritually, or even to become enlightened. But would you do so if it did not
have any purported or tangible benefits?
There are certain things that remain, however. We dance
not because we want to enter competitions or look good in front of a crowd or
our friends (though some do) but rather for the enjoyment of it. Unlike
running, it is not a matter of faster and longer being better nor is it related
to covering a distance and getting from point A to point B. It is something that
we enjoy doing with others or alone. It is something that we do with a kind of unconditional
love, which is so rare in our world and sphere. Replace dancing with listening
to music, taking walks, reading, painting, and sculpting and you may catch my
drift.
All in all, Salinger is the embodiment of the writer
as an artist. He creates not for but just because. Writing is his religion and
his psychotherapy. Writing is his escape from the world. Writing is what he (thinks
he) does best. Writing is done for himself and his own eyes only and no one else’s.
Writing is his obsession and compulsion. It is a dream and a nightmare. It is
also what makes his life worth living and enhances the beauty of it all.
